Mens Secret Cries- Not without me

'Is Linda in?' I asked the burley guy at the front door. He stroked his jacket and put on his shades in a carefree manner like he had all the time in the world before bothering to respond to me.

'yes she is. You need something?'

'Who is it Anderson?' Linda shouted out from inside. 'I just have to put my shoes on then I will be out. I finally decided to wear the trainers after all. Man I cannot be bothered to be fighting with the mud i tell you.' Funny she sounded much happier than I was led to believe. She did not sound like someone whose heart was breaking.

'The last time I checked, the lil lady did not want any visitors,' Anderson shot at me.

'I am not just any visitor. I am her -'

'Bwembya! What are you doing here? How did you know I would be here?' Linda interrupted as she got closer to the door. The Guy leaned in even closer to claim my territory.

'I came to see you. You left in such a hurry but it looks to me that you are already moving on,'

'Whatever. What can I do for you?'

'Can we talk outside please?'

'Anderson give us a minute please,'

'Sure. Let me know if you need me,' her bouncer said without as much as giving me a way out with that stare of his. A hand enough to hold five children grabbed her by the waist inching her closer to him. A fiery pit in my stomach promised to expel its bowels on him. I loathed the self control that resided in me. she widened her lips as he planted a soft petal like kiss on her forehead and marched back inside.

'So that is my replacement is it?'

'Who he is is none of your business. The way I see it, I don't owe you any explanation. At least you friend has finally got the message.

'What is it that you want me to do to prove that I love you and only you Linda? For goodness sake, I think I have pulled out all the tricks in the book that I can master!'

'I don't have time for this. I am about to leave for  Livingstone so...deuces,' She said turning to give me her back and strut back into the house. Without thinking, I placed my foot in between the door to wedge it open.

'No way are you going anywhere with that clown!' I exclaimed.

'Don't you have somewhere you need to be?'

'If I did I would be there right now. I am where I want and need to be. We are going to talk about this and no more drama!'

'Are you still friends with Chris?'

'Yes because I do not have a problem with him! I have a problem with you focusing all our energy on the details of how close he and I are!'

'That is silly. I am not concerned about any of that! You are the one that swings between us like a pendulum hence making it a problem!'

'Oh so you decide to hang out with schwartznegro to teach me a lesson?'

'No. I am done teaching you a lesson. I am moving on for myself and my own peace of mind.'

'Not without me you are not. You are not living without me nor are you leaving without me!' I grabbed hold of her  wrist and dragged her off the doorstep.

'Bwembya, let go of me. This is ridiculous. you are making a fool of yourself.'

'Linda for a minute can you just listen to what I have to say.'

'Fine you have one minute. Make it snappy.'

'I cannot make it snappy. Just knowing that you were heading the other way in my life instead of where you need to be left me breathless. I could not breathe. I have not even showered. I have forfeited my job when you know i never ever miss work but this is more important to me and yes I have taken you for granted but its the inevitable stupidity of men to get ahead of ourselves when we should know better. I have loved you for the longest time. Your place in life is beside me. you know how you can never go to bed alone. Well I think I have a permanent solution for that if you will have me.' She looked away as a tear threatened to expose her secret that her heart was still with me.

'Bwembya you have been my best friend for like forever and I said yes to being with you because I believed with all my heart that you would never hurt me. You knew everything about me and maybe, maybe that was my weakness. I should have never left myself open like a book to you. I know you think I was weak with Chris and yes I was but I am not that woman anymore. I am not just any woman to you. I am your best friend so how dare you treat me like garbage!' Her voice trembled as her words grabbed at my heart strings.

'I know baby. Nothing will ever tear me away from you again. Just give me another chance. You know my word is my bond and I don't just know what came over me. I promise I will honor you the way God intended. I love you, so much I think I love you more than I love myself. You are my world woman,' I tilted her cute chin towards my face and caressed it with my thumb.   A resilient tear finally escaped along a track on her face. She had never looked more beautiful. I kissed her eyelids one by one. A silent promise of the love I was to dedicate to her. 'I will never hurt you like that again. All I want to do is be with you and I will give my right hand to be right with you baby. Believe that I will. Now who is that James Bond looking dude? God you move with power! Couldn't you get a gardener?'

'Silly. Anderson is Julies brother. He is married and was just going to take me to Livingstone because he has a conference there. Sort of killing two birds with one stone.' She smiled playfully and took my palm in hers placing a comforting kiss upon it.

'So may I take you to Livingstone?'

'Oh gee I don't know, you best ask Mr Bond.'

'Girl don't play like that. I wanted to kill him just seeing that hand on your lower back.'

'I love you Bwembya. Even when you want to act like a spoilt brat.'

'I love you too baby girl. Lets get going shall we?'

Anderson came out and flashed a wealthy smile as he headed to the Range and snapped his fingers fro the houseboy to open the gate.

'You need to keep her close to you if you don't want to lose her man. She is a power ball.' My phone rang and interrupted  the perfect moment.

'Hello Bwembya it's your secretary. It is about your sister.....'