Unhappiness is a habit

There is no human being that can say they have never sought happiness. Happiness whether it is in friendship, work or family we have all searched for it.

If we look closely in our lives happiness is something that can ne achieved. It is not something that just remains a dream it is a habit.

From childhood we observe how adults handle arguments and unpleasant situations. we see how mothers hold on to pain and abusive husbands. In short we observe how it is normal to not want to resolve issues or to hold on to a sob story because this is what appears normal for each situation we go through.

In reality however, this unhappiness is something we have learnt to cling onto. sometimes it justifies our excuses not to move on to the next level in our lives. Life is difficult  but it can be made easier by making happiness a habit as we do its opponent.

Make a habit of enagaging in happy thoughts, doing things that make you happy and accepting that even though life is not always going to be easy, you will always be you. you cannot run away from yourself. Situations are there to make us stronger,Learn to embrace your life and not your problems. Embrace your joy and not your sorrow because mercy from God is new every morning.

Perfect Valentine

It is no rocket science that you were designed to be mine
perfect fit like a rose merges with thorns
anyone try to break me
you always there to protect me

it is no magic that we encrusted like diamonds
each intricate design
rare in its beauty
but wanted by everyone

it is no math that me + u = us-eternal
each minute adding to the happiness to soon be multiplied
every argument we encounter
strengthens us ten times fold

it is the truth that you were born just for me
because we are a real family
argue like siblings
joke like friends
unembarrassed by the others weirdness
complimented by the familiar smile
and the comforting hug when times get hard

sometimes i thought it was not real
yet my heart knew and wanted no other
sometimes my mind ran away and craved something else
but my spirit and my body would rather expel this mind
than lose your unconditional love

I have tried some shoes
at times the design was close to my dream
but the laces a bit loose
sometimes they were too pointy
pinching my toes with every step
some where far and the delivery took too long
but this shoe looks right
no matter what clothes i wear

yes i know you agree
because for the first time i have fallen hard
like a child learning its first steps
you like a new father willing to teach it
it does not take many words to tell you how i feel
because you are how i feel
you know because it is the same for you
passionate intimately fantastic
i do not have to wait 50 years to be a part of my dream world

i have written and inscribed poetry for the wrong reasons
spoken about love to come and the perfect thing to look for
Landed a rasta. stumbled across a prince sometimes even a mafia
but they were all codes used to write this perfect poem one day
because i found it all in you
faith love and undeniable loyalty and support

so this year valentines day is not exceptionally special
because it is everyday with you valentines and angels day
but since commerciality demands
i shall show off just what a valentine should really be like

The child in me

so this is me...tired and despaired
looking at myself helplessly like a child lost
yes i am a child lost
looking at myself through my grown up eyes
a child stuck in a huge dress

everyday the grown up in me tries to do right
but is often defeated by the cries of the child inside
am i responsible for what happened then...
no but i cannot help feeling that the one i really love
carried me for nine months
is unhappy because of me.

no matter how much the grown up tries to grow
the child in me cries
trying to break free from this tie, this bond that has enslaved you and I
the very reason you are my smile and am your frown
is the one reason that has let you live in fear
and me in anxiety
to threaten your relationship and exhaust mine

we pray and tag and fight
yet constantly this cord brings us back to where we started
at the beginning of our nine months
me the seed and you the tree
sheltering me when it rained the hardest
and yet when the farmer cuts you down....am not strong enough to save you

so tell me child,
no tell me grown up,
tell me Jesus.....when do i get the freedom
and peace of mind to be me
the real me

Fight to forgive

I was inspired last night from a source I vowed to despise and cut out of my life. They had previously hurt me so much that I used to say there is no way I will associate with these people again.

But failing to forgive only creates a prison for yourself. These bitter feelings are set by you and lack of control on your emotions. In my darkest moment this sworn enemy picked up the phone and preached to me. They showed me that despite having hurt me, they also knew me understood me and blessed me. It was through them that God reminded me my worth.

 He used the very person that i thought destroyed me to rebuild me.
Am I saying you should never cut people out of your life? No but I am saying never let your emotions rule you to the point of hating someone. Everyone is human. Sometimes people hurt us unintentionally sometimes on purpose but how much effect that has on our lives is in our hands. We need to fight for forgiveness because it is the only way you can go forward with your life.

Apart from forgiving others, fight to forgive yourself. Watch the post on Bishop TD Jake's preaching on forgiveness and the many ways in which it binds us.Better yet buy the book above it is available on kindle and see your life transform. Let go of things of the past. Although it is difficult, remember everything that is worthwhile is.
Be blessed

AQA

Three vs four

Set of three keys
Neatly placed on the table
Three vs four
Apparently love can be weighed
I love you but... Am not in love with you

Three years on the table
A long time to decide
How to love you honestly
And have you lie
I stay strong so you cant see me cry
I promised myself you aint worth the try

Now i lie here alone
Better off alone
But the 3 versus 4
Cuts my heart strings still

Still here

Still here
you should have left ages ago
6 months to be precise
should have been your untimely demise

yet you still linger here
leeching on every green grass
still a parasite
despite the hope of the rain

You should have been gone by now
yes you with the short hand
but thirsty eyes
the water gleams more favourably in another land
yet mine you still drain

You still here
no massage can mould you out
you are a past tense
with a present style
gone but still holding on

Time should have erased you
but you still here
time should make you irrelevant
but the pains still fresh
time should have put a stop to your existence
but your selfishness persevered

Still afraid
not of you
not of him
but feelings fear
meeting your style still

Kids4Kids

A song here and a dance there
we sweated for what we believed in
the strifes we bore and the losses endured
never forgotten

The late night bonding
and pleasant banters
after a sweaty afternoon
the cause was never forgotten

we travelled far and wide
singing the songs we loved
in our hearts we grieved
but celebrated the living

Some of us fine
some of us not
but Kids 4 Kids was our motto
for no child
should ever be forgotten

For each painful scream
we danced for help
each moment of loneliness
we played for toys
For each uncertain future
we campaigned for sponsors
for despite the distance
we never forgot them

A baby
a child
a teenager
a woman

what do you do when u all grown up
and you cannot be a kid no more
we walk hand in hand
still inspiring one another
Princes 4 Princes
and
Queens 4 Queens